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Jul. 8th, 2005 @ 06:33 pm Hi hi
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Hi, helenangel mentioned this community too me so I decided to head on over, I liked what I saw and joined.

My name is Tanya (but you could also call me Jack), and I'll be 20 in 7 days. I come from a Roman Catholic background (I was baptized, but it was more to shut the grandparents up then wanting me to grow up catholic). Since my parents divorce my mother has converted, and is now technically Anglican, but her and her husband have been going to a Jewish synagogue (and he is from some off-shoot of Pentecostal). My father has remained Catholic. I mention this as both my parents have the idea that I need to choose my own spirituality then having one "forced" on me.

That said I am a Polytheist Pagan (as many pagans aren't polytheist), and I am always researching other religions/paths. And I am always thinking about/discussing religious matters. As a Cultural Studies major religion studies is a major element of my university life. But since I was small I've been researching the history and elements of various religions.

Other quick facts so this post doesn't get too long: Canadian, mother to 2 spoiled rotten cats, I've suffered from depression for years (which has lead to me actively searching for a spirituality for me, and not just knowledge), geek.
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From:onyxblue1
Date:July 8th, 2005 09:46 pm (UTC)
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Hey, watch who you're calling a geek!;-P
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From:arcanefairy
Date:July 8th, 2005 09:55 pm (UTC)
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Oh but I am a geek. I new more then the Star Trek Geek on the show beat the geeks. I've written university papers on Star Trek Captains and Harry Potter. I can relate the Simpons to many of my major philosophical discussions. I call myslef "El Presendte" as I am the president of the Cultural Studies Society. I'm a geek and I am proud.!

I am Geek. Hear me snort my nazel spray! :D
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From:onyxblue1
Date:July 8th, 2005 10:05 pm (UTC)
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The Simpsons is a very intellectual show. When my mother-in-law was substitute-teaching, she would tell the kids that they needed to learn [whatever subject] so that they would get all of the jokes on The Simpsons. I don't think she was exaggerating much!

Welcome!
From:_bella_luna
Date:July 9th, 2005 04:33 am (UTC)
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Another geek here *lol* It's fun being a female geek - it makes all the male geeks want you. Just kidding. My husband is proud to show me off to his other geek friends, as in, "Hey, my wife kicks some Halo butt!" or "My wife's Paranoia character, all six versions of it, will kick your bootee!!" and "My wife is training for her black belt in taekwondo, she can kick your butt." I love that man. *lol*

Anyway...

I have clinical depression and, because one mental disorder is never enough, suffered with and am surviving agoraphobia. My spirituality has gotten me through it all. I've met so many other women who are dealing with depression and agoraphobia who don't have a system of beliefs in place or any form of meditation to get them through the tough times. I want to hug them and say, "honey, let me tell you about Jesus!" (my choice of spirituality), but I don't want to scare them. I just think that if they could find something to believe in, something bigger than themselves or find some kind of hope and peace it would make dealing with agoraphobia and the depression so much better.

For me being able to read my Bible and pray, going to church and worshipping has really given me the strength to deal with my depression and my agoraphobia. I know that now if I hadn't had my prayer life or my devotions I would never have made it. Devotions help me see the problems in my life at a different angle and show me how to trust in the Lord.

What kinds of meditation do you do to get you through the rough spots? Do you read any kind of meditative devotion? I'm not quite sure what a polytheist pagan is - I mean I know what it means, but I don't know what it means. *lol* I've always been really interested in other religions. I know some of my Christian brothers and sisters would have a problem with that but I feel that learning about someone else's religion challenges me to dig deeper into my own faith and why I believe what I do.

I'd love to read your papers on Star Trek and Harry Potter.
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From:arcanefairy
Date:July 9th, 2005 10:20 am (UTC)
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I feel the love.

I say I'm a Polytheist Pagan, as I do not belong to any spefific pagan path, and (what most people don't understand) a good majority of pagans actually believe that all Gods/Goddesses are just representations of one being. I personally believe that all are seperate beings.

I don't meditate for hours as some people tend to think. Reading a book by the Dalai Lama he taked about taking taking a few mintutes a couple times a day to relax the mind. Which I do, as it needs no special preperation, all I need to do is relax (often I find myself doing it during commerials).

My depression is heirditary (my great grandmother after having my grandmother had a break down, and since it was the 1930s the person who signed her into the mental insitution had to sign her out, she ended up staying there for 20+years, and my grandmother spent times in insitutions in the 1970s. Several of my aunts are on medication too). I found that my depression lead me into finding a spirituality for myself-rather than just studing religions for the sake of being a know-it-all.

Actually my stepdad and myself get into heated 'arguments' over various religious topics, so much so that mother has often banned topics before they even start (often when we are in the truck, as there is no way for her to get away).

And I'd love to share my essays with you, but alas I am about to travel out west (I'm on the east coast, I'm heading for alberta) for alittle over a month. I will have the internet though! I'll make sure to remember for when I get back. :D
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